A Little Perspective on my Tuber
Busy day yesterday, everyone - sorry I didn't get to update. I have nothing but good news to report. I have a to-do list as long as my arm, but I'm going to start with my writing, because it makes me happy.
I had a meeting with my wonderful new oncologist yesterday, Dr. G. Here are the facts: The biopsy results show that the tumor is fairly low grade, appears mostly benign, and is fairly slow growing, due to it's size and the fact that I'm mostly unaffected by its presence. The size - about 3cm in diameter by 6cm in length, about the size of not one, but two golf balls. I've included the picture of this delicious tuber, for comparison. And it's apparently been there a long time, because if it had shown up any more quickly, my brain would not have room to function, due to the tumor's size. The seizures were most likely brought on my recent work and stress levels (who, me?), which lower a person's "seizure threshhold". Good thing for overwork, or I still may not know about this. Gift upon gift...
I was truly expecting these western-medicine-types to grab me by the arm, and start hyperventilating, "We have to do something NOW - we must remove this foreign mass from your HEAD - it doesn't belong, and it must be eradicated!" I knew going in that I wasn't overly open to going in after it, invasively or chemically. I figured it got there without anyone's help, I probably needed to reflect on that a bit, and figure out how to begin asking it to leave on my own.
But Dr. G's outlook is relaxed and extremely encouraging, if unexpected. He wants to run more tests, but is recommending no treatment at this time, due to the basic fact that the I'm essentially healthy and normal and unaffected by the tumor right now, and doing anything could prove worse than leaving it alone. PERFECT. My thoughts exactly, previous to even having met him. And I'm very much into going with how I feel on this, much like I run the rest of my life. So the bottom line is, I'm going to observe, research, explore and take the time I need to figure out what, if anything to do. No urgency required. A new philosophy indeed.
In response to my comments about life feeling more hopeful, things seeming more beautiful than ever, I got this from a friend in Denver yesterday:
"It is like Einstein said, paraphrased: There are two ways to live, as if nothing is a miracle, or as if everything is. I, personally, am on the miracle side. I think a big life event like this amplifies your beliefs, either in miracles, or in the lack thereof."