Want To Make God Laugh?
So today didn't go according to plan.
The plan was to: A#1)Take driver's test. B#2)Pass with flying colors. C#3)Get driver's license back. D#4)Drive myself to my doctor appointments, pick up groceries, or, omigosh, go see my horse! The possibilities were endless!
Ambitious, yes, but I'm nothing if not a little determined to make up for lost time these days. More often than not, my haste to check things off my list comes at my own detriment when those plans mysteriously fall apart...
Me, through frustrated tears: "I like having a plan. Plans make me comfortable. But I'm going on two years of nothing going according to plan."
Boyfriend: "I know..." he chuckled and gave me a squeeze, "but let's learn from it, okay?"
So, I laughed too. I know that once I can laugh about it, I can learn from it, and this lesson was begging for my acknowledgement.
Sometimes, it feels like the same lesson, on repeat. I miss something, make a mistake, and the Universe just hits the Play button again. A lighted placard, patiently illuminating the words "Try Again". My own little Groundhog Day...
Sometimes I see it right away and laugh with Her. Sometimes the irony of a lesson slaps you in the face so hard, you can't even see straight right away. The lesson becomes so profoundly clear, you have to admire the creator of the lesson. And then you realize it's you. YOU put yourself in that place to learn THAT. All the while, She's begging you: Are you getting it yet?
Like when you go to take your driver's test, after over a year of not being able to go anywhere by yourself. You're on time, you have all of your paperwork. And you're at the wrong DMV. That's right - I drove to the wrong place to regain the ability to drive by myself. Hmmm...
Today I lost my patience with Her and yelled, "What the F#%*k do you want from me?"
And She shot right back, "For you to do better."